Trying to Keep My Faith

hiks.. hiks.. hiks…. huuhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. so tired…

start from last night. i can’t sleep. and today, in my campus, i started to study from 8 until 2.30…. uhhh.. without having lunch. i was hungry.. until now i am still hungry…

when i was in bukit. i prayed in technique mosque. and then i went to my english course, with a hunger stomach, tired, and not well body. my waist is sick. hiks3… but, i kept my faith, still keep my spirit.

at six, i went to tower. there was a meeting there. but i didn’t bring my slayer. my friends force me to push up. uh… it was ok… even though i was sick, i was hungry, and i was tired… but why did they say it many times??? i hate hearing it. they were like not trust me… uuuhhh…when the meeting finished, i pushed up. and i saw them laugh… my heart was sick… how about another who didn’t come??? will they push up too??? the answer is ‘no’. and how about me??? i came. but pushed up. i tried not to cry… i know there is someone between them who is not like me. after i pushed up, i went… i hate them… i hate their way make me like this. i walked alone, with keeping my tears…

but, there was someone run me… he wanted to company me to my house. but i rejected him. he still run me. but i still rejected. he forced until i cried. many people saw me. i didn’t care. i was tired…

what am i??? i am mad… this is your giving after i have been kind of you. isn’t it??? should i try to keep my faith???

is there someone who still stay beside me when i need???is there someone who gives his/her shoulder when i cry??? is there someone who cheer up me when i’m sad?? is there someone who gives me a hope to continue my life when i give up?? is there someone who keeps my faith???

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