It was Special, It’s not Special

huahuahua… i just wanna laugh… last year it was special, but now it’s not special (anymore)… why??? that’s why…………

one day without sleep… with full moon in a dark sky… it was full of memories… colorfull… smile, laugh, sad, disappointed, crying… but now, it’s not in my mind (anymore)… trying to forget all… if i have a change to release one of memory in my life, i wanna release that memory… all of them… actually i don’t hurt, but i can describe my feeling now. many events happened… but all of them just go away, leave me in confusing… before i understand them…

forgive and forget… perhaps i just can do that… needing a part of heart to can sincere… needing a part of mind to accept them… needing a part of kindness to try smiling… needing all of time to keep my faith, my principles, and the truth… and also need a pray to pass all of them…

always pray, but i don’t know my concrit praying. i juat want the best for me… for everything… for every part of my life… i want to go out from this trap…a invisible trap… i just wanna say: i can’t survive (anymore)… just let it flow… don’t disturb its growth…

and after all of happen, it is not special (anymore). just keep your faith, if you think it’s true… or it will be true… but trying to see the real… and thinking long term…it’s not about yesterday or today, it’s about tomorrow, and forever……….

please understand………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was special, but it isn’t special… in side of a night, still be yourself… i don’t have grudge for everything…..

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