Unutterable feeling
from forest come back to the city… but it needs sacrifice… actually it just finish my responsiblity… be a committe in training of my green peace… need much time, energy, and etc… unutterable feeling… when i must slept on the rock and my blanket is a dark sky with or without stars, and when i got up i saw a green view directly, a lot of tall trees, much fresh air, flowing water sound… no everyone can have this experience… unutterable feeling…
when i must cooked for 28 people. even though actually i can’t cook. be proud, may be…
when i always met the same people every day. i always interact with them. share together, laugh together, help each other.. unutterable feeling… when i was sick, they cared me. when i needed help, they helped me… and we had fun together…
unutterable feeling when i lost in the forest for searching a house… we got a wrong way… when i lost, it was rain and night… no lighting… no slipper… i took a backpack… raining… my dress was wet… falling down… i was afraid… no food…. no drink… i was afraid if we were famine… if we must made camp in the road… i gave up… but i thought that i must always had spirit… and i went on my journey to found the house. finally, after i lost 3 hours, i found the house… and do you know??? i always lost if i wanna go to that house… so full of sacrifice… but, may be to get the view of that house, i must paid with lost… unutterable feeling… in there, i always remembered my mom… i wanna go home.. maybe i was homesick…
when i was in my home… i felt alone… i don’t have friend for laugh together, sharing together… eating alone… sleeping alone… huuh…. i feel alone.. lonely… i have no body…
what is the real of endless happiness??? like what???
when we got what we want or desire, is it endless happiness????
huuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh… hhhffffffppppppfff…..
UNUTTERABLE FEELING
Finally
finally i’m free… my examination was over… 10 days was torture… and today, happy holiday… 
evaluation of my exam, hmmm….
the first day, metodologi penelitian, so near so good… the score of my mid test is not too bad… but, i don’t know in the post test.. i hope i can get a good final score.
the second day, epidemiologi kesehatan lingkungan… huhhh….. i believe i can do it, but i don’t know it wrong or right…
the third day, penyakit akibat kerja. arghhh…. so far so good…
the forth day, hukum dan uu kesehatan,,, i don’t really understand about this subject, but fortunately after i read it, i can understand, and i can do it… eventhough my answer are not right all…
the fifth day… surveilans epidemiologi… about malaria, pjk, tbc, afp… i must memorized all of them for one night… crazy… and my lecture told us that the highest score in my class is 62. and our score just C and D… oh my god…
the sixth day.. epidemiologi penyakit menular.. it’s my re-subject. i think i can do it well… ;p
the seventh day, gizi… oh no.. i have many problems with this subject. i almost go away from my class… i don’t really know how my score… i’d just pray…
the eight day… aplikasi komputer… i didn’t study befoare i had exam. but, my score is not to bad. i got 80. :p
the ninth day… farmakologi. 100 questions. oh no.. i can’t answer many questions… hiks3… 
the tenth day, the last day, but i must have two subject. dinamika kelompok and biostatistik non parametrik. so far so good… hahahaha…
it’s the over of my fifth semester. coming up of sixth semester. still keep fighting. i must graduate in 2010… and still pray i can get good score… eventhough i can’t get the best score. but i have done the best for it.
and then… now… happy holiday…. keep smiling, keep fighting, keep laughting, keep having fun, and keep crazy… huahuahua…
Break Away
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I`d just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I`d end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I`d pray
I could break away
I`ll spread my wings and I`ll learn how to fly.
I`ll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won`t forget all the ones that I love.
I`ll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away
I`ll spread my wings and I`ll learn how to fly.
I`ll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won`t forget all the ones that I love.
I`ll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don`t know where they`ll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away
I`ll spread my wings and I`ll learn how to fly.
Though it`s not easy to tell you goodbye
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won`t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away